it's me. just me. only me. is there anyone else?

2009-02-15T08:13:00.000-08:00

recently i got hooked to a game on face book...

PET SOCIETY!!!

my pet's name is lealea(pronounced lehleh)

i tried to make it look as much as possible like the leopard i lost

but pet society got no leopard spots...

so here's a picture of my current pet

ain't she cute!!!

she has green eyes just like leopard...

she has a triangle nose just like leopard...

she's brown just like leopard...

i miss my leopard...

2009-02-15T07:57:00.000-08:00

MS JANICE DICKINSON IS THE FIRST SUPERMODEL OF THE WORLD

i dont care if anyone thinks that she only self-claimed,

but she's got the attitude to be the first supermodel of the world.

if she dares to say it on national tv,

she's IT.

i dont care if she's silicon valley.

(quoted from Jay Manuel from cycle 3?)

she once said,

"i used to be able to make that facial expression,

now i've got too much botox in my face i cant do that anymore."

like HAH.

SHE TOTALLY DESERVES TO BE CALLED THE FIRST SUPERMODEL EVER IN EXISTENCE.

she's got the attitude,

one unforgettable face,

she's been on the cover of vogue 37 times.

she deserves it!

silicon valley or not.

2009-02-08T08:46:00.001-08:00

FROM STAR TO DRUGS.

Olympic star Michael Phelps. HA. The idol of many swimmer or sportsman wanna-bes, 8 gold medals two mistakes.

First there was the drink driving. Then after your glory of 8 gold medals in the Beijing Olympics, we see a picture of you taking marijuana. NICE....

In an interview he said, "I engaged in behaviour which was regrettable and demostrated bad judgement," In another statement through one of his agents, "I'm 23 years old and despite the successes i've had in the pool, i acted in a youthful and inappropriate way, not in a manner people have come to expect from me. For this, I am sorry. I promise my fans and the public it will not happen again."

HEY! U said something like that once...lemme think. OH YA. The last time when u got caught for drink driving....

DUDE.. i still remember how i was like during the olympics. it during exams and all i could think about was, "i've got to get home to watch Michael Phelps swim." You're like a dolphin or something in the water..

considering if the whole entire youth population was like me during the olympics, wanting to see Michael Phelps, cheering him on...8 GOLD MEDALS...the whole entire world watching...and here we have drugs... WOW... kids who see the picture of you taking marijuana would just be soo dissapointed... and is he telling everyone that its ok to take marijuana?CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES. why didn't you think about the whole world watching when u took marijuana?!

For all Michael Phelps fans that think i'm just writing about him too harshly, i'm just taking him on a guilt trip(considering if he reads this). He's 23 years old. that's ADULT on your identification. he's not juvenile anymore. granted he not an adult yet in the phycological point of view, but ADULT. YOUTHFUL DOES NOT COVER IT.

I'm just disappointed and sad man...the only swimmer i watched in the olympics and i always thought that he was and is and will be a good role model for all youths out there.

it's just sad...

2009-02-07T07:23:00.000-08:00

PIZZA DAY...

and guess what happened

after reaching home around 10pm

i felt a little hungry..

so i took out one of those frozen pizzas

and waited for it to thaw...

after half an hour,

i opened my pizza and got it ready for the toaster...

i put the pizza and aluminum foil in the toaster...

and guess wad...

THERE WAS A PAIR OF BLACK SMALL BEADY EYES STARING BACK AT ME!

THERE WAS A FREAKING LIZARD IN MY TOASTER!

EWWWWWWW!!!!!!!

can u imagine if i were to not notice it and just started my toaster?!

i was screaming to high heaven and my mum came rushing out....

"THERE IS A FREAKING LIZARD IN THE TOASTER!!!"

so me and mummy started to hit the bottom of the toaster

(which was where the LIZARD was at)

then my mum was like

"should we heat the toaster?"

i was like

"eww mum...that's disgusting...

then we will have the burning LIZARD smell in our toaster."

mummy was like

"ya lor...i find it disgusting too"

we wanted to get our dad to remove the bottom tray to get fid of the LIZARD...

but then....

i was screaming and nudging him...

by now he should have woken up...

i think he was pretending to sleep...

a tit for tat i guess...

thinking abt all the times in the morning where i pretend to sleep...

CAN U IMAGINE IF WE ACTUALLY TOASTED THE LIZARD?!

its like putting IT in the fires of hell.

like you know...

where we get burnt in some level...

the heat and all

ewwwwww

*shudder shudder*

then we would have all the burnt LIZARD smell...

and to think the eyes of the LIZARD were soo shiny...

and it looked soo innocent...

big time creepy...

i guess my dad will solve the problem tomorrow...

toodles...

the smell of burning LIZARD.

2009-02-02T07:44:00.000-08:00

LIKE OMG-NESS...

i just realised its been ages since i last posted something on my blog...

just a short update for saturday(31 jan) we went to my bue po house(she's a relative on my dad's side) and she lives in pasir ris...so just my family and i just decided to drive over to our old house...blk 417 pasir ris drive 6...

freaking crying when i saw the house...

i miss it soooo much

its the place where i found my strength,

and that even though i was alone in the conditions that i was extremely scared of,

i still found the courage to be independent...

i was so scared of the dark...

and every night i would tell my mum...

"you must come back to sleep in the room...must promise me..."

i would stay up all night just waiting to see my mum return to the room,

until i gave in to exhaustion.

i used to have really bad dreams.

about people dying

getting lost in a huge mall

being taken away.

in the beginning i cried really loudly for y'all.

but no one came...

in the end...

i just learned how to cry silently to myself.

if my childhood home is still there when i grow up,

i want it back...

i'll paint it just the way it was

and tile it just the way it was...

i still cry when i think about it.

how much i loved and still love that home...

its square brown grills.

its dark sliding windows.

the blue pink and green plastic blinds.

the playground where my dad would wave at me from above.

the mama shop where me and my brother would sneak to.

my bed next to the window.

the grey kitchen

the carpeted tv room

the duck where we put our keys.

i miss it all so much..

2009-01-11T23:33:00.000-08:00

i know this is extremely old news... but....

I AM FINALLY A COACH FOR IAG AND SK!!!

YEAHNESS!!!

i cant wait to do more camps...

i wanna thank the pd and apd for having such faith in me..even though i am still relatively a new coach...they let me take recourse.... thanks...

LOVE YA!!

2008-10-25T20:25:00.000-07:00

i had a dream this sunday morning(26/10/2008).

and i felt the need to type it out.

as such, here it is...

2008-10-13T07:22:00.000-07:00

THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

today(13/10/2008)

good thing is...for this sem ALL mondays start at 11! can slp in... yay! H/W..we have 4hr of Fundementals of Marketing! 4 freaking hours!

this new timetable is kinda ok...

so...i kinda thought the GGT teacher was kinda interesting...i found the Google globe thingy really interesting...i feel like downloading one...

i will start studying the chaps and do MM of FOM Chp1...

toodles!

muack.

2008-09-30T08:49:00.000-07:00

How did i spend MY day...

at around 12am in the morning i recieved my first birthday greetings from my twin brother...Thanks! then i recieved another one from chunling and many others!...

i reached home at 3 am in the morning...went to sleep and woke up...

i recieved my gift from my 2nd aunt. Thanks!

then i reluctantly went for dance...nicole had actually asked sean edwin and stacie to go over to SP to celebrate my birthday...THAT WAS THE HAPPIEST PART OF THE DAY

then went over to vivocity to celebrate with my family...nobody wished me a happy birthday...go eat food court never mind...AT LEAST WISH ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY...i have never felt so lonely in my life...i didn't even have a cake with my family...i wanted to get wine glasses and when i walked out of the super market i found no one waiting for me. do any of you knows how it feels? its like getting lost in a mall full of adults and u can't find your parents.... i was nearly crying when walking to meet all of them.... nobody even bothered to ask what was wrong even when i looked unhappy.

no cake.

no birthday song

no hug

no love

where did my family go?

2008-09-17T08:12:00.000-07:00

Vain Egyptians

that should have caught ur attention right?. ok...so it goes like this...me and my friend Grace was discussing makeup on MSN today then what happened was that she asked me...

"Red Earth good or not?"

i replied,

"Got lead."

so i told her how to test...

she tested it and was like "omg it changed colour"...

then i said...

"then ur skin will get poisoned...and change into a sick yellow colour...and die like vain Egyptians"

yar...didn't u people know that Egyptians were the first to invent makeup? they use to put lead on their faces(aka our foundation) and got poisoned...no wonder people die so easily in Egypt.

hardy har har...

i LOVe my lovlies.

and die like vain egyptians...

2008-09-16T17:57:00.000-07:00

U ARE TAGGED!

PEOPLE do a video/blog entry/wadever on 5 facts about yourself...and let the world know a little more about you!

so yar...basically this has been a slacking week. been at home nearly everyday. looking forward to Jive tomorrow in school. i woke up at 630am today...WHY? good question... i have no idea...kinda feel like sleeping again. if all else fails i'll learn korean.

oh ya...i made my own breakfast today!(no, my house is still perfectly fine, i didn't burn anything. i can read ur mind u know) i had a omelette and 2 slices of toast. but i still feel hungry...

oh..while i was eating my breakfast, i was reading today's paper. the Digital Life section. and i saw two things that i want.

1) its an iHome.

-built in speakers

-clock

-alarm clock

-MOST IMPORTANTLY... DOCK FOR IPHONE!

2) its a SMART PEN

-yes it is a pen with ink

-many tiny cameras that scans whatever u write on the paper.

-built in calculator

-built in translator

-can plug to computer and it shows the scanned version of ur paper on the computer screen.

-after writing u can tap the pen tip on the word and the inbuilt speakers will pronounce the word for u.

-priced at S$329

-I WANNA!!

am i a technology geek or wad?! i need good technology!!! i want my iPhone! then i'll save and get an iHome or smth...then name my iPhone "Penelope"(as for y penelope....i want all my things to end with "iee" sound...hence my book-iee[my notebook], my mac-iee[macbook cum boyfriend cum baby], and yea PENELOPE[my les partner{i feel guilty...cheatin on my mac-iee}]

so yar...

i LOVe my lovelies!

tech geek tech geek...

2008-09-15T00:29:00.000-07:00

hey peps..

sorry for not updating...

i've busy with work and camps...

too tired...

i've been working at the ritz carlton recently...

on the 13 and 14 of sept. as a waitress in the Food and Beverage department... training for the Grand Prix in Singapore...goin to be working with the ritz carlton at the Singapore flyer.. i have to reach the hotel at 9 am in the morning for the work...I HAVE TO GET NEW SHOES...my shoes are horrendous.. my feet is still cramping today. the uniform of ritz carlton banquet is like kueh lapis. hah! imagine that! i would say working in the banquet department is painful. physically and mentally... physically as in the pain in the arm from carrying all the heavy silver tray and plates and bowls of food... mentally as in u see all these good food go to waste or u are really hungry and all these plates of awesome food is right in front of u. like for example...there was this dish...sliced abalone with sea cucumber and blanched vegetable in thick sauce. there was a few guests that ate only the blanched vegetables and not the expensive abalone and the sea cucumber! like wad the hell! ALL THOSE GOOD FOOD!!! u dun wan i wan!

and yesterday when i was serving the chinese wedding banquet, my team only had one side station! where got enough space to put the jugs and the trays and all the 4 plates of food? so it was really rushed...FULL HOUSE! 750 pax. sorry for the environmentally conscious people...i LOVE sharks fin! and to see that bowl of double boiled sharks fin...argh! stop growling u naughty stomach! u cant eat it! can only see and smell and serve! but no eating!

haiz...only FI left...but if like do this for like once a week will be quite good..cos like got extra income of 42.25 dollars each week for only 6.5 hrs of work...tiring but a really good experience.. ill never do this full time...ill DIE!!! next time i ORDER other people DO!

so ya.

i LOVe my lovelies!

toodles!

2008-09-07T10:08:00.000-07:00

hey peps.

i made a video about myself.

ENJOY!

2008-08-26T06:17:00.000-07:00

2008-08-26T06:11:00.000-07:00

i'll do whatever it takes...to get what i want

FUCK IT!

(sorry for those who cant take vulgarities)

2008-08-22T20:19:00.000-07:00

today is the 23 August...11:21am.

hey peps sorry fro taking so long from my last update....was really busy with coach training, school, goin out with friends and stuff.

rite...so econs is 4 days away...i am goin to apply every supermemory technique i know into studying econs....PTH and FUNE was hah...i dunno wad i am goin to do...

alright....yesterday was pretty awesome...i was kinda slacking all day at home...the only productive thing i did was to sort my econs notes...ya...then i ended up watching the Olympics...

then in the afternoon i went out for lunch with my mummy! we went to century square at tampines. i had korean food...it sucked. my mum had some soy chicken hor fun thing...then we went to shop! i went to DMK and i saw a pair of oxford pumps that were pretty...i wanted to buy it then as usual..dont have my size...have to reserve...now when did i ever have any luck when it comes to reserving stuff? ya...then i bought a black satin nightie...NOT for me to sleep in!

right thats all for my next post its gonna be all pictures!

i LOVe my lovelies.
nightie

2008-08-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA...

Singapore got a silver for the table tennis finals...i find the situation kinda ironic...when i look at it, i feel that its kinda like CHINA versus FREAKING CHINA...[anybody see any ounce of Singaporean blood in those 2?]one of the players used to be in the china team! like WAD?! nvm...i saw the fight between south korea and japan for the bronze medal...YAY!!! SK won! and ya...so we got the silver medal...can someone tell me what are the medal that we have already?

oh ya...u know the olympics show on channel 5, the "Today In Beijing" i think that Jade Seah is TOTALLY, GARANTEE PLUS CHOP that she cannot make it as a news broadcaster...like NO!!she was slouching....horendous.

k.i din attend coach training today cos i had to study for my test...PTH...been using mac daily...

i LOVe my lovelies
china vs freaking china

2008-08-11T08:07:00.000-07:00

AWESOME DAY...

i had my FINAL econs tutorial in the morning... YAY!!! then i went to clementi to try to get the MC....h/w i had to reach tanjong pagar at 12 and at 1130...i was still waiting for my turn...hai...take damn long lah.. so i went straight to AKLTG to have my PHOTO SHOOT!!!!

the photo shoot was about everybody's ambitition...and we had to dress like our ambition...so naturally, i was an AIR STEWARDESS[u can see my ambition at the side under wants]. had the blue kebaya and had heavy makeup... RED LIPS...{hmmm...i wonder if i look funny?} it was really fun...i'll post up a photo when i get one...awesome...{and i still did not get my MC}

after the photo shoot, me, edwin, sean aka twinie, nicole, marjorie went to Burger King to eat...WHOPPER JR CHEESE MEAL....then me, edwin and sean started to study{i really mean study..} then the guys got bored.... edwin started to sleep...sean started to play some games that looked like O2jam...then the guys got their HAMSTER...if anyone wants to buy hamster, tell me!!!! i can asure u that the hamster are real cute!!! and their fur is damn soft!!! DAMN CUTE!!!![insert Awww.s here]. OK...back to topic...so i was the only one left studying... i am sure i learned quite alot on elasticity i must say...{here i go again..} THE HAMSTER ARE DAMN CUTE!!!! PEOPLE! BUY THE HAMSTERS!!!

oh ya by the way... 2 guys are irritating......u 2 better stop it.....STOP IT I SAY!!![at this point either one of them is goin to crack a lame joke and i'll do my best to maintain the Kristal look] ARGHHH!!! im goin to get the MC tomorrow...

i LOVe my lovelies...
ham ham ham ham[buy those awfully cute hamsters!!!]

2008-08-10T09:36:00.000-07:00

NDP AND BEIJING OLYMPICS OPENING....

i am totally hooked onto an opening song of the olympics. its called You and Me by Sarah Brightman and some Chinese guy... her voice is awesome.. i loved the people dancing part in the beginning...its an awesome way to form a painting. thousands and thousands of people are like involved in this opening. IT WAS GIANORMOUS SCALED!!!!

the NDP kinda pales in comparison, h/w my aunty pointed out some points that i must mention. the NDP is much livelier. and with more colours and lights. CHINA = PEOPLE, SINGAPORE = TECHNOLOGY....

oh ya....SERVICE AT CHANGI SAFRA...PROMENADE

the service CAPTAIN sucked...cause we could'nt really decide on what to eat, we got our orders mixed up a bit. he had the "are-u-done-yet?!!!" attitude which i heard in his register[EC,EC]. Chinese....hai...well ever since i learned about service quality, i found out that i like to judge other's service quality and have taken note of the moments of truth. SAFRA CHANGI PROMENADE. BAD BAD. H/W the assistant captain served us very well...i recognize him from the last times we went there...he got PROMOTED!!! CONGRATS!!! U TOTALLY DESERVE IT..

i LOVe my lovelies.

"you and me, from one world, we are family...."

"come together..put ur hand in mine....

come together...we are family..."

2008-08-02T08:50:00.000-07:00

today generally --> well quite wonderful...

i went to the movies with Amanda cousin and my brother....we went to marina GV for Dark Night. actually...i cant really understand the movie...and i just think that joker is such a pshycopath....he's not a freak, just crazy....after the movie, we rushed all the way to pasir ris for dinner... we went to the smth hong kong restuarant. ate wanton with spanich noodles...YUMMY! after that me and amanda went around...i bought new earrings! [studds] i totally forgot to go fresh profususion for my danglings...

oh ya...is today like NDP rehersal or smth? i saw ALOT of males in their uniform...[ahem...gd looking?] they were like patrolling all over the place...

i LOVe my lovelies.
ITB...ITB...ITB

2008-08-01T06:10:00.000-07:00

What others see from your style
You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.

What your nightclothes reveal
You are knowledgeable and intelligent. You are organized, confident, liberated, energetic and full of fun.

What others see from your ties
You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour.

What others see from your belts
You tend to be outspoken and even aggressive. You either love or hate people, ideas and things. You can sometimes find facing the truth difficult and are an extremely confident person.

What others see from your shoes
You like to be the center of attention. You like to look good at all times and probably never leave the house without makeup on. Although you may be intelligent, you're also insecure about your looks. You care about others, and will always listen to what they have to say.

What others see from your earrings
You are a sweet and talkative person. You are sociable, energetic and interesting, and get easily bored by the same old things. You are always looking for adventure.

The last analysis
You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

2008-08-01T05:59:00.001-07:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2008-08-01T05:15:00.000-07:00

what's happening to me?

i really need to think...i totally had a break down the day before yesterday. i couldnt find my CD the form and i was just frantic...i was like whats happenning? then i cried...everyone is pressuring me. they want something. whats happening to the people around me? whats happening to them? what the HECK are they doing?

today when i was walking home, i suddenly had the urge to speak to God....i walked to church[the one near my house]...only that i had no idea where the prayer room was. i really have alot of things to tell him and alot of questions to ask. i hope dear Lord, u can lead me to the right direction. Lord, i will do all i can to move in the direction u lead me to. Lord, i thank u for all the times u have laid a comforting hand on my shoulder whenever i was crying silently alone. i know that only YOU alone understand my need to cry alone. i thank u for always leading me to the right path even though i didn't listen to you for a period of time. i thank u Lord, for always being by me even though i'm not Christian or Catholic. i thank u lord for believing that i believe in u although im not allowed to convert. thank u lord...

btw ppl, im NOT Christian or Catholic. i just believe in God.

i LOVe my lovelies.
dear Lord, please guide me.

2008-07-30T10:59:00.000-07:00

iwonderifanybodycanpullmeoutoftheneverending
blackabyss.ifeelmentallydrained.cryinghelps?
ihavenoideawhatimfeelingnow.ifeellikemybody
isanemptyshell.ifeelasifiwasbleeddry.1:59ami'm
stillcrying.

2008-07-30T10:38:00.000-07:00

Thursday...1:15am...

i am crying...my soul feels wrecked...

2008-07-28T14:05:00.000-07:00

from yesterday till 5am in the morning....

OMG!!!! i went home and slept! all the wat till 353am ! then i was like...OMG!!!!i din do anything...so i woke up and started with PTH first...made a list of equipement on board. i am goin to go on to find pictures for ITB now...and its 506 in the morning...makes me think back on the days on the cruise. haha...miss those times...so fun lah...

oh ya...yesterday during our 2nd break...we went guild house...to play tieti(is that how its spelt?) i think i know how to play...i think...and ena...congrats for seeing him! it was fun!

hai my econs.(add in soul shaking sobs here). im glad that lusia thinks im an ok student...most of the time ive been said to be like inattentive, talkative...and my comments always end with she can do better if she pays attentions in class if she can STOP reading her storybooks in class....the teachers think that others read does no neccessary mean that i will read in class....granted, i do read in chinese class at times...but i was very sure the teacher never noticed.

rite...i digressed.

i LOVe my lovelies.
i am shallow...ya..he IS pretty good looking.

2008-07-26T22:46:00.000-07:00

i came across a poem i wrote when i was in sec 1. on the 6/may/2004. looks like ive been writing sad poems since a young age! i cant seem to write happy stuff...

HEAVEN
The vast skies
above all lands
are clouds that gather
a holy meeting taking place.
The fire ball sleeps
while candle light burns.

While me standing in
staring at the bluish skies
my mind thinks about the life with the skies
where people live in joy.

Hidden in those iron bars
trapped i am in a lonely heart
wants the life of freedom
where rain falls, giggles heard
twisting and turning i move.
The life of freedom, happiness, movement and life.

yup..that was it!

i LOVe my lovelies!
rose. and peeps i promise i'll do the quiz in a while

2008-07-26T07:06:00.001-07:00

today generally --> hmmm...interesting...

i had S.M.A.R.T program today(YES-NEC). left my house at like 615am! i really wanted to sleep on thee train from sengkang to outram park...but..the glass panel was like oily and the temperature was freezing....so din slp....reached school at 745. Did attendence for RI etc etc...u really can feel that their from RI...and they eat like loads...

after S.M.A.R.T(which was ard 11am) went VIVO with Amanda(DTRM) to have lunch...she had to go sentosa and i was free sooo.... we went Marche... we like practically shared everything..first a swiss Röschti with sour cream lemon and salt. 2nd, we took 2 soups, clear vegetable broth and cream of salmon. it had bits of salmon in there. 3rd, we ordered a small dish of penne pasta. with seafood and homemade tomato sauce. there were like funny vegetables in there...Amanda took all the clam-ish stuffs(cos i dun eat) and i took the vegetables and some mushroom. we were like masacaring the 2 prawns we had(peel skin w/o using hands). we finished the solid foods and spotted some wine. we were like, "hey! u rmb PTH...." and we walked there, in our SP shirts and got a glass of Rose(14% alcohol content) and nobody questioned our age! HAH! after getting the glass of wine, we returned to our seat and proceeded to swirl, sniff and coat our tongue with the wine. the wine is kinda new. so there were no wine legs. this is the first time WE BOUGHT and DRANK OPENLY in PULBLIC(NO PARENTS)! awesome....

after that we went to get Amanda's cake and she went St.James Powerhouse the area and i went to Khatib for Nicole's event. I was assigned to be a HENNA drawer...i drew for people non-stop from 430pm to 810pm. thats like nearly 4hrs! (owwww my eyes) my hand is like covered in henna. dirty... good thing is...i took home lotsa freebies! LOTSA LOTSA! i couldn't draw facing the ppl so i moved to seat nxt to them. drawing for little kids' hands was like ARGH!!! their hands are too small...freedrawing lotsa...the henna place was like brimming with ppl lah. everybody wanted to get one at the END.

took nicole dad's care home.stephie was also in the car...she did henna too! OMG...my eyes are damn tired.*yawns* ate longan for fruits. yummy...

i LOVe my lovlies.
i do like rose...

2008-07-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

I Scream..
no!
no!
no!

please no.
please don't leave me.
please care.
please stay with me.
don't die on me.

u lied!
u lied!
u lied!

u tore my heart.
shreds...
or u stabbed right through it.
staked.

agony!
agony!
agony!

it hurts.
it bleeds.
u tore it.
my blood is on your hands.

pain!
pain!
pain!

it all i can feel.
stoned.
its ripped.
tattered.

really?
can i believe it?
what am i doing to myself?
really?
i can forget it?

{hah...forget it i wil not and cannot}

2008-07-24T09:35:00.000-07:00

I Wanna Go.
i wanna leave.
i wanna go away.
i wanna run.

face it.
face your problems.

no.
don't wanna.
i wanna run.
i wanna go away.

i wanna hurt myself.
i wanna cry myself to sleep.
i wanna leave this place.
i wanna go.

please be serious.
leaving wont solve anything.

dun wanna.
dun wanna face it.
i wanna run.

onyx tears sliding down my cheek.
do they harden my reslove?
or do they seep into my heart.
a black abyss.

i wanna run...
i wanna go...
i wanna leave this place..
please let me...
i wanna go...

{let me...please...}

2008-07-24T09:27:00.000-07:00

I Fall
i fall.
i scream.
i cry.
i crumble.

i jump.
i laugh.
i smile.
i giggle.
but no more.

i fall.
i scream.
i cry.
i crumble.

once.
twice.
thrice.
whats gonna happen on the fourth time?

joy?
laughter?
death?
pain?
love?
hate?

u scream.
u shout.
u cry.

You fall...
You crumble...
and you're gone....

{im drowning}

2008-07-24T09:18:00.000-07:00

I'm Drowning.
there's just this little thing in my heart
it's about to break
it's shattering
it's hurting me
cutting through my flesh.

the thorns on the rose prick me.
a liquid ruby slides down my finger.
stare at it.
look at it.
a red ruby.

a boulder.
it's crushing me.
it's hurting me.
i can't breathe.
i can't talk.
i can't reply.
i can't answer.

a gem.
sliding down my cheek.
taste its saltiness.

feel the coolness of wind hitting your skin.
feel the gems rolling down.
pearls.

you clutch at your chest.
u can't breathe.
gems on your face.
liquid ruby.
a single rose.

You drown....

{i wanna drown}

2008-07-23T06:16:00.000-07:00

today generally --> er....rite....

well those 2 "words" are like the only way i can describe today....everyone was emo today...i went to school...with blue nails!!! i wonder what would miss chen say tomorrow abt it? ok.....school finishes...i noticed like some ppl were in a "bad-sad-emo" mood... what happened?

and ya btw, i found out during EC that kelvin fainted during dragon boat yesterday! 50 rounds...craziiiiii. he fainted, rest for a while....stood up and attempted to continue to run...ARE U LIKE INSANE??? if it was me, i would have just stayed there....on the ground if necessary.

and NEARLY everyone was emo-ing after school. i went to meet my mum at dover..we went hougang for lunch....cos i needed to collect my testimonial....haha...they eliminated my D7 physics..and i just realised that i got no Cs in my cert! all As and Bs[mostly Bs]. the testimonial was shitty...all abt leadership...my chim angmo....CCA...singing...leadership....and NO STUDIES!!! haha.... OH and btw..i passed by many of my juniors and nobody recognised me!!! i guess i really must look different... with curly hair that nobody saw as it was all tied up... and my nerdy councillor look....from good girl to naughty naughty! then went to eat Char Kway Teow...then went home....

was slacking until this time...gonna start studying already....

i LOVe my lovelies.

i guess im really different...

2008-07-20T23:16:00.000-07:00

today generally --> im just tired

like updating for today...i really wanna concentrate, and always do my best to...everytime i feel this pressing thing on my heart. i think thats how my mum will feel if she sees me in school. she must be so dissapointed.. it hurts. im sorry mum...

in ITB now...doing frontpage....blogging at the same time...i will work hard..KEEP MY EYES ON THE GOAL...FOCUS ON MY OUTCOME...

i LOVe my lovelies.
are you really serious about me?

2008-07-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

today generally --> wadever...
went chinatown today...i thought nicole's course work was pretty fun!
sorry for not updating...
currently hooked onto an english song sung by a korean... hear it... its my blog song

1000 Years of Love (Innocent Steps OST)

Moment, you came to my heart just by chance
To me you don’t seem to be a stranger
It took so long for you to finally find me

For a 1000 years
I’ve been waiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years

Sometimes I know it will not be easy, yes true
Until then I will pray for our true love
Don’t ever forget my love
we will be together

For a 1000 years
I’ve been waiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years

Don’t say
I don’t want to hear you saying ‘Goodbye’
Please promise me
you will always be my love

my love
For a 1000 years
I’ve been waiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years

I’ve been waiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years

i LOVe my lovelies...

2008-07-14T18:17:00.000-07:00

오늘 --> 무료한 아침

아침에 있는 컴퓨터 레슨이 있었다. 나는 아직도 나의 handphone를 놓친다. 나는 everytime 나가 그것을 생각하는 울고 싶다. 나는 그것을 가 어디에 달라고 하는지 생각해 본다. 누구는 이미 그것을 판매했는가?

나는 나의 lovelies를 사랑한다.
당신은 어디에 나의 당신인가?
for those of u who need a translation.its abt me missing my HP.

2008-07-13T03:29:00.000-07:00

today generally --> crap

everytime i see my now phone. which is a motorola v3. i feel like crying. what is happening to my v9 razr now? is it ok? did someone seel it? i nearly offered a hundred dollars to anyone who found it yesterday. its like losing a child. all this thinking has cause me to lose my interest in studying. my dad even offered to let me use his new sony ericsson phone...thanks dad...i love u...but then that means u have to used back ur old phone. ur v9z got some problem. always auto shut down. love u dad.

i actually went back vivo yesterday to find my phone. i think i i left it in the toilet. i feel like knocking my head against the wall until it bleeds everytime i think of it. the stupidity. i didnt find it. if anyone out there reads my blog...and has found my phone, pls return it to me...its important. its part of me. it must have all my pictures and songs and contacts in there. i just might give u a 100 dollars for it...

i am entitled to think about my phone for a longer time...
my friend says its a sign for me to get the iPhone.

2008-07-12T20:51:00.000-07:00

yesterday generally --> wonderful in the beggining and SUCKED like shite right at the end.

1) I LOST MY PHONE. I LOST MY PHONE. I LOST MY DARLING SHINY AND PRETTY AND NEW PHONE.

i had a good cry over it. the phone was so damn expensive. it was the 1st expensive phone my parents trust me with. and yet i lost it. i actually lost it. the phone has all my memories my pics my songs. parts of my life that i could never replace. i loved my phone. i dont feel the shiny smooth surface of my phone anymore. i feel like a have lost a huge part of heart. call me a techno geek or wad....i love my phone.. its like me losing my phone is more painful than breaking up w bf.

its like this huge chunk of my heart is like carved out. i cant breathe...

i still love my phone.

2008-07-10T07:34:00.001-07:00

today generally --> nearing great!

sorry for not updating for the past few days...been busy and stuff.

there was only one lesson [ PTH tut] then go home.... at 11! instead, we went to city hall marina for SEOUL GARDEN...omg...u just have to look at my table and u can tell that we are all cleaniness freaks!!! after eating me and kelvin started cleaning the table![stacking up plates, wiping table etc etc...] very full...i totally regret wearing tight shirt at that point of time.however...

1st: went shopping around marina square in heels!...one portion of fats burned off...like round and round...all the a bit high quality shops...

2nd: had dance sport in sch...second portion of fats burned off...did the rumba today[nicole it's not lumba...] front hip replace hip side body hip... rotate hips....my legs feel like jelly now....

as for the other parts of fats... waiting for other activities to burn it off...yup...have to do the PTH case study and confirm the gathering plan and make the thingy*...=D

i LOVe my lovelies.
stuff to do. stuff to do...

2008-07-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

aujourd'hui généralement --> matin pas mal

J'avais l'Économie ce matin. nous avons passé par quelques questions dans la classe de travaux dirigés. Mme. Tan a aussi partagé quelques histoires avec de grandes morales que je suis sûr de partager avec mes participants pendant le camp.

la possession de ma pause maintenant. n'a pas eu envie de manger beaucoup. juste avait des fruits. et décidé à blog.

j'aime mon lovlies.
je suis insensé. je vais écrire mon roman.

2008-07-06T19:29:00.000-07:00

yesterday generally --> saddening. enlightening

i went to safra country club yesterday. couldnt swim so went to play pool instead. the area was north pole-ish. my muscles felt frozen up. studied with my brother at tables. there was this little boy, he kept disturbing me and my bro during our game. damnirritating.

i just found out that my retest is on tue. not mon. qiong....

sending serene off tomorrow.[7july2008]. oing airport with the whole class.

i LOVe my lovelies.
bia for my test.

2008-07-05T09:45:00.000-07:00

today generally --> okok nearing to great!

went shopping with mum today...went chinatown with the goal of getting a skirt for dance sport. but hey! everything in chinatown cheap cheap!!! so bought a biz top and a bag. anything but the skirt... haha.

and ya...WHY DID I NOT KNOW?! WHO INFORMED U PPL?! i was seriously getting pissed abt it. and n????? is there a reason as to y u din tell me? like i am seriously pissed.

i LOVe my lovelies.
pissed now. dont talk to me.yap yap yap.

2008-07-03T07:30:00.000-07:00

today generally --> almost great!

well first things first! THERE WAS NO SCHOOL TODAY!!! so our class went to lion befrienders at queensway to visit the senior citizens again! IT WAS AWESOME!!! We were exercising downstairs and played a game. Amanda, darrell, weili and ME were sooooo suay to get the smiley face. we ended up singing songs...li xiang qing ren. a whole new world, the moon represents my heart and 2 tigers. DAMN funny. A auntie invited us[kelvin, carlyn, me] upstairs for milo. she told us alot of stories of her life, and even though i didn't really understand hokkien, but after the translations, i felt very touched that she was willing to share her life[the ups and downs] with us. it was....words unspeakable....after that, we went to Anchorpoint...[for wad?]

to.......celebrate weixian's birthday! happy early birthday! we had cake and KFC. the person there was damn irritating. nvm...nearly the whole class went!

after the celebration, i went back to school for DanceSport. we learnt the rumba today...like OMG!!! it is super difficult. it has alot of hip action and the dance is real slow and cant cover any mistakes!!! now my butt hurts from all the stretching we did rotating our hips. ouchies...

reached home around 9.... and did the usual stuff. sorry for the late entry. hmmm...i was thinking of writing a novel...should i? all rite, i'm going on to my homework now...

i LOVe my lovelies. toodles.

ps...

SNAPE:hmmm..what is that mysterious ticking noise? it's kinda catchy...

Snape, Snape, Severus Snape. Snape, Snape, Severus Snape.

DUMBLEDORE: dumbledore!

SNAPE:Snape, Snape, Severus Snape.

DUMBLEDORE: dumbledore!

etc etc...

2008-06-30T17:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday generally --> snooze...zzz...

once i went home yesterday, i was EXTREMELY hungry [as usual]. after that, i was actually very determined to do some work on EC. but i wanted to lie down for a while....and guess wad...i slept till this morning. so i didn't have enough discipline to wake up and blog. so ya...

now i am in my first lesson of the day. 0800 ITB. T22612.

i LOVe my lovelies.
the time on my blog is screwed up. i can't be bothered to learn how to change it. toodles.

2008-06-29T20:05:00.000-07:00

like me and my new dress!!! super camwhore pic!

nothing to do at night on saturday so decided to take pictures!!!

i LOVe my lovelies.

toodles!

2008-06-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

today generally --> relaxed in front and tense behind.

woke up at 1 pm today. was supposed to go golf-ing with the males in the family but ended up staying with my mum. had fried fish, thick beehoon in soup. but...the woman gave me pig soup instead of fish soup!!! like it tasted weird!!!! read story bookes and watched tv in the day and now i am goin on to the gruelling part. homework...

michelle, thank u so much for sms me the list of homework to do. i would have been totally lost if not for u. will start doin once i got out of night shower.

oh ya i also went to the library today. borrowed many many books wouldn't want to miss the 8 book quota!!!

i LOVe my lovelies.
books galore!!!

2008-06-29T07:44:00.000-07:00

yesterday generally --> great!

went out with grace today. hai...Chunling y u sick?... we went to bugis to see her supplier and collect her stuff. i bought a dress! i dun have the picture bcos it is the MAC software. went shopping for a very long time... walked with all the crush around!! arhg i hate crowds. getting jostled is not in my to do list! alright. i FINALLY bought the perfume i was looking for since i was in sec 1 or 2. flower by kenzo[the minature version]. bought pair of shoes, flats not heels. cant possibly wear heels to school, it'll kill me. after shopping, actually wanted to go home to eat. but it turned out that my family wanted to go all the way to bedok just to eat hokkien mee. so...i went to grace's house to eat! it was a great meal! and i don't really eat much during dinner. trying to lose weight. I AM NOT ANOREXIC[is tt how u spell it?].

i LOVe my lovelies.
munch. munch. munch.

2008-06-27T04:26:00.000-07:00

today generally --> equal parts shit, equal parts sugar

had statistics exam today. can't really say if i was doin well or not but overall, pretty ok. after the exam, went dougby ghaut[is tt how u spell it?] for lunch with my 2 aunts. had crystal jade[hey, even though i own that chain of restaurants, i still need to pay ok...] had a can of COKE[ahh...heaven. Pepsi be damned] and some light dishes like ee-mian. den bought a ticket to watch "Don't Mess With The Zohan". i tell ya, now i can see why it was NC16. Lotsa sexual humour. lotsa lotsa. like yuck! a bush! eeewwwwww.

i would think that the movie moral is: have lotsa sex, make many old women happy, fight wars, and OH YA world peace...

i LOVe my lovelies.
j'aime tous d'entre vous!

2008-06-25T23:28:00.000-07:00

yesterday generally --> bad and good[in order of time]

i screwed up my PTH. i din write my MCQ on the answer booklet. yup...so i dunno wads goin to happen to me. please be merciful.

i stayed up till 4 in the morning. was studying STATS[statistics] and watching 斗牛要不要, and guess which activity won? haha.

it's nice, but the character Hebe is playing kinda irritates me. she like doesnt care abt the reasons why others do certain things, she wants ALL things goin her way. like she gets really irritating. its funny, and emotional and mike he is damn good-looking[notice in din use handsome. i really dun like the word in english shuai4 sounds nicer. handsome makes me think of horses, not human].

oh ya... i got hooked onto a chinese song. its called 一眼瞬間 by A-mei and some guy. A-mei has got some serious vocals. woah.

i LOVe my lovelies. toodles.
mike he. mike he[i hope i dun drool all over my laptop....]

2008-06-24T09:09:00.000-07:00

today generally--> soso but thankful for the day.

went through my photo booth today. and saw the picture of my kids for sk2[june holiday] aren't they cute?

speed read through my PTH notes. i think it is all abt common sense. so i only read the important slides. yup. wearing yoga-ish pants and t-shirt to school tomorrow, cant be bothered anymore. will continue to study PTH until i wanna sleep.

my lovelies from DTRM/FT/1A04, sorry for showing the emo face after the exam today. that's my way of clearing my head. or i am really tired.

i LOVe my lovelies.

my migraine is better. oh i wish upon a star...and just wondering where u are?...

2008-06-23T20:15:00.000-07:00

so far --> wadever

this morning i woke up at 7:46am. i sent my toddler cousin to school. there was this girl infont of her that kept "slapping" her. i think the girl wanted my cousin to look in front. my cousin ah...too quiet, only give the girl the evil look. and the girl's parents were next to me. i should have said,"eh mum, see that girl with the pink cardigan in front, why she keep slapping and irritating the girl behind her? Soooo rude, i wonder who are the parents? never teach her manners..." i should have said those words...hai never mind.

had western breakfast[scrambled eggs, sausages, bread] bored, so blogging now. finished all my econs notes. from like 46 pages to 10 pages. actually i could shorten even more, but was lazy.[Mindmaps]. alright, i gotta change to go to school!

2008-06-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

wow the previous post had load of "i seriously need to..." and "i need...". if it sounds very commanding to you, i am sorry, but this is my way of scolding myself...haiz

i LOVe my lovelies.
i seriously need to stop "i seriously need to..."

PS. i did the test i found on amanda's[dtrm] blog. I'm a [that's also like the 1st half of my sec sch name HIHS]

2008-06-23T07:31:00.001-07:00

today from 2:30pm till 10:30pm --> brain bursting!!!

my head is like filled with econs! Wanna see my nerdy look?
the specs are my mum's and my hair is in a mess. look damn sucky. and i put my own ugly pic on the internet. nevermind. HIGH SELF-ESTEEM!!!

i am at the last chp of econs, taking a break my migraine was slightly better in the afternoon, but it got worse after dinner. i am seriously thinking that it is a toothache. I NEED TO SEE A DENTIST. no traditional methods for me!

i seriously need to look through my econ tutorials and find out the format the essays. den i need to shower again. i seriously need to squeeze in some reading time. i need to crack my neck and back. i need shoulder massage! [where are u twin?! JKJK] i have like 5 unread library books now. gonna give myself a reading treat after MST!

Shayne Ward playing in my room now."u got me tangled up in you..."

GOALS FOR TONIGHT:
1.shower
2.read for 1/2 hour at least
3. finish all ECONS notes
4. rmb to off the speakers b4 they explode.

yup that's all!

i LOVe my lovlies.
my head-neck-back-shoulders are killing me! and i cant use ice compress and i got no heat pack. oh wells...continue with my nerdiness

2008-06-22T23:42:00.000-07:00

OH ya i forgot this is me on the right and that is my cousin cum sister[amanda] on the left. note to all viewers, i am 17, no matter how old i look to u. welll, i guess looking old does have its advantages.

i LOVe my lovlies.

HEADACHE/TOOTHACHE?

2008-06-22T23:18:00.000-07:00

today morning till 2:30pm generally --> ok ok

was still having the migrane in the morning. so kinda pissed off. reached school half an hour early for the exam[tah cool down ya know] and WOAH carlyn was even earlier. today's exam was Principles of Accounting[PACC] the first question was worth 32 marks, the 2nd qn worth 14 marks and the 3rd qn worth 4 marks. i think and really hope i can pass. i was totally lost at the correction of errors portion. the last question, i could only answer part A. so ya, no A this time. I WILL GET IT NEXT TIME ROUND!

tomorrow will be ECONS, there are 4 chps studied one and half still left 2 and half. i have to write my own notes! will start studying from 2:30pm until Snooze Time! do my best to squeeze some reading time in there. tomorrow's venue is at T2147[i think], from 2pm to 3pm. i will reach there around 1:30pm[my usual practice]. HOW LOVELY.

i will blog about other stuff tonight!

i LOVe my lovelies.
still am a walking first aid kit, but i cant cure my own migrane.[i think its a toothache]
P.S. stop asking me if i thought about it already. i will give u my ans by thurs or friday. BUT I NEED THE DETAILS OR IT WILL END UP LIKE THE LAST 2 TIMES...

2008-06-22T05:28:00.000-07:00

today generally --> a bad day

i think i got off the wrong side of the bed. i woke up with a "dislocated" feeling jaw and a freaking migraine[i think that was wad it was, it only hurt on my right side]. am still having it as i write this. I DIDN'T STUDY ANYTHING TODAY. it was a complete waste of time! jurassic park is showing on the tv now. my irritating brother keeps switching channels. oh, now he is watching formula 1 racing. my head feels heavy. no matter how sick get tomorrow i will go for my exams. i dun think i am getting LOA. i will have to pia tonight.

my headache is killing me!!!!

i LOVe my lovelies.
erm...abt the first aid kit thing, i can only treat basic physical wounds. for emotional wounds, come on, hit me with it. i can take anything.

2008-06-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

like this has been an great day on whole.

1st things first...
i went for a movie today with my brother and amanda[cousin cum sister]. we watched "GET SMART". it was HILARIOUS. i repeat, it was HILARIOUS!!! like i couldn't stop laughing! true enough there were some emotional parts.[oh ya before i forget. the before movie advertistment...where they ask u to silent the phone...it was damn funny! the money not enough 2 version that is...they act emotional. HAHAHA] the gadgets in the movie was absolutely cool. i would say i was too busy laughing that i forgot to take note of the storyline. WATCH

2nd thing...
i saw a pair of high ankle converse sneakers i want. i also want a pair of sneakers from IPZONE. [it looks like a white quilt]. the white quilt one comes first.

3rd thing...
i can't believe i actually saw u today!!!
like i was absolutely shocked!
[FYI, it was my coach i saw at compass point]
like he was super skinny and super tall!
and like we din recognise each other, but just like stare for a couple of seconds then just walk away. it was when we were chatting on msn then we found out it was each other we saw...SUPER CUTE rite?!

4th thing...
i watched a video of my toddler cousin[cannot call her baby anymore...she's a big girl!] she sang her barney song as if she was singing an emotional ballad[for an example search for the korean song GRACE. the mv is with like hotair balloon and sword fighting] sooo cute! she stirs maternal instincts[as well as all my kids from all camps, especially SuperKids Junior...{i wanna have kids when i grow up!!!}] JKJK

5th thing...
everybody from DTRM/FT/1A 04 doing ok? surviving or drowning in lecture notes and books? well those who are kinda drowning...HI 5 MAN!!! yup. the current is sweeping me further away from the shore... EVERYBODY MUST WORK HARD...ACHIEVE UR AMBITIONS...i wanna fly in the skies

yup...NEVER SAY DIE.

i LOVe my lovelies. toodles.

2008-06-21T07:35:00.000-07:00

decided to start a new blog.
ya
needed to refresh everything in my life
will copy all my this yr post here!

i LOVe all my lovelies out there!

and remember!
i am a walking first aid kid for all kinds of wounds!